into my third week of fall semester. beginning painting I (of II), and personal mythology. I'll give you a guess on which is my favourite.
really love my mythos class. I'm focusing on my family. ...which really means me. ;^p
BUT I used it as an excuse to sign up on ancestry.com... love it. I've easily spent over fifteen hours on it in the last two or three days. found a line to king arthur! (through campbell, starting with my great7 grandmother ...though there are some discrepancies.)
anyway, I'm attempting to mythologize my family. my dad's a twin. my mom died when I was youngish. time, memory, legacy, and identity are interesting & important issues to me.
it also relates to my "I'm in an existential crises, why aren't you?" joke. which also involves evolution ...as a species, as a planet, as a[n(?)] universe, and as a family on a macro & micro scale. everything seems against you in terms of the probability of your existence, yet you're alive.
SO I'm trying to tie that into some kind of a narrative based on my family. or something.
but I need to do some physical art.
it's just been theory and research so far. I'm also reading books on iconology, subpersonalities, and incest.
also a memoir.
as for painting I: I'm painting a still life in four monochromatic scales. before that, we did ten small quick black&white studies of single objects.
I need to get more ultramarine blue. and flo-aid.
the starkest difficulty is in learning to paint in an impressionist oil-painting kind of way. holding the brush at length, lots of paint, quick strokes. I'm used to a watercolourish method. still fast and gestural, but less paint. though that is kind of an issue of mine..... conserving/hoarding/rationing. at least it was in the past, I've gotten better with it.
...in art, and life.
fear is nobody's friend for long.
(though I think part of my preference for watercolour, and less paint, can also be tied to my appreciation of minute details in the mixtures & textures of colour & line. but that's me focusing on small things. zooming in. and that relates to my interest in 'found compositions' and depth perception. (primarily with photography))
BUT ANYWAY..... I need to make sure my mannerisms don't become academicized. <--though that's a fear of influence. hmph.
oh, and I got a B & B+ in drawing & design, respectively. though I feel my quality decreased over time. at least in terms of input energy. and that's another issue.